iWorry

So for the past few weeks, I've been watching loads of documentaries. I think I was just lazy to study and I like watching TV so I just put them together so I felt less unproductive hehe.

But watching all those documentaries just made me worry. A lot.

I've been writing an essay on Malthus' population theory, which is basically: as population grows exponentially and the means of subsistence arithmetically, one day the world will just run out of food and people will die blahblah.. so watching those stupid documentaries just amplified my worries even more.

There was one about the food we eat and how unhealthy we were. I went to Whole Foods the next day. My diet now consists of nuts, prunes for antioxidants, more tuna and less take aways (that's a lie).

Then I watched one about paedophilic priests (don't ask -___-) and started worrying about my own children (next time lah). First the food, now horny priests? I decided to stop watching them for awhile. Who knows, if I watch March of the Penguins, I'll even feel sad for birds.

Yesterday, during tutorial, my tutor was telling us how to finish off our environmental essays and he said that it was okay to conclude with a bunch of questions, it was okay NOT to have a conclusion - we don't know all the answers and we don't know all the circumstances (super lightbulb moment - never thought I'd get enlightened in school -__-).

I have a lot of questions I want answered and a lot of doubts I want reassured. I know everyone does too. After much worrying over my children being molested, me starving to death, catching bird/swine/panda flu, dying in war, etc... I realised, WHAT'S THE POINT?

I told my sister about my new diet and she was like, "Yesterday, I went to Subway and they asked me what sauce I wanted. I said - EVERYTHING". Hehe.

What I'm trying to say is, whatever we worry about.. it may or may not happen. If it does, it will come sooner or later. It's okay to be uncertain, it's okay to not have all the answers.

Wow, now that I'm reading it out loud - seriously, wtf was I worrying for.

auf wiedersehn goodbye.

all that you have is your soul

i daydream. way too often. don't you?

i dream about what my life will be in 10 years. i dream about my wedding day: veil or no veil, 3 or 4 bridesmaids, garden wedding, church wedding?

i also dream about my funeral. it's not morbid, it's realistic. it's like a wedding, i'm going to be married someday, so it's a celebration of love. i'm going to die someday, why not imagine how my life will be celebrated? i'm not hoping to die, i just.. wonder what it'd be like. okay la after this post, i will touch wood ten times okay?

i want a garden after party (or funeral haha). no one is allowed to wear black and there must be cake. guests will be served my famous chicken soup (cos all moms gotta have a famous chicken soup) and playing in the background would be songs i listen to now. i hope for my children to sit around and talk about how much i used to annoy them, for them to realise later, how much they will miss me :)

the sun has gone to bed and so must i.

so long farewell auf wiedersehn goodnight.

*touches wood x10*

corals for spring?

last night, i went to bed and couldn't sleep till 2.30am cos i was looking at clothes -___-

i love proenza schouler's new spring collection!

i like how their collection started off with just plain minimalist black and white. i didn't really like a lot of them but here are the ones i did like!

i thought the shirt-tied-around-the-waist idea was GENIUS. GENIUS, i tell you! and the SHOES are gorgeous!

oh and then come my favourite pieces! it's like scuba+hippie on acid and every model looks like a different type of fish. i mean, who would've thought spring-coral and not spring-floral!

SIGH I WANT.. next post, oscar de la renta. would blog all of it now but thought that'd be overkill.

so long farewell auf wiedersehn goodbye!

the end of the noughties

happy new year! :)

i don't believe in resolutions but i make 'em anyway! it leaves me feeling shit at the end of the year thinking about how many of them i've actually kept. but since i always make them, i've come this far and my life doesn't entirely suck haha (it could be worse!).

i won't share them with you cos i'm too shyshyhushhusheyetoeye. also, i may not keep all of them and then i can't use my annual i never made such a ridonkulous resolution act, cos now you know and he knows and so does she. and we can't have that now, can we?

my advice: break your resolutions into small steps. studies show that people with goals as resolutions have a lower success rate compared to those who broke down these goals into separate stages. okay lah doesn't take a genius to figure that out but i didn't realise it myself until someone gave me that piece of advice himself and i was a bit skeptical about it, till i read about it in theguardian and theguardian knows all so my friend must be pretty smart then haha.

i'm not gonna pretend and say this year is gonna be different. i don't know about you but i'm always like on-fire-ready-to-goooooo after new years and then completely pfft-later-lah. so i decided this year.. is gonna be the same as last year and the year before that and the year before that. i sound like such a scrooge.

my point is: this year, i'm taking the back seat, i'm going to follow my feet.

so happy new year from me to you.
adieu adieu auf wiedersehn goodnight!

hoot hoot

Floo powder power floo powder power!

Can't wait for July 16th!!!

stretch

it's so good to be home.

will you still meet me on the sunny road?

I love looking up song meanings - maybe cos I'm not poetic enough to make up one myself :)

#1 turtlegurl
I think that the girl in the song was with a man/boy/whatever and they were in love, however, she needed time to figure out what she wanted in life/from their relationship, but it takes her years and she's unsure if he still loves her. So when she sings ''it's time, meet me on the sunny road'' it means that she's ready to be with him, and knows what she wants from the rest of her life.

#2 In the Garden
It's about a girl who wasn't ready to commit yet. She does have that picket fence dream with a husband, kids and all, but not just yet. And so she left her love. She traveled and was gone for a long time, did all that she thinks are her heart's desires.

But eventually she got tired and things didn't make sense anymore. And what made sense to her now is to have her love back in her life. She's now ready and she's hoping the guy's still there, hence the letter.

Hopefully they'll meet on the Sunny Road.

These may not be right at all, but who cares!